I attended the kick off to Good Vibrations Amateur Erotic Film Festival in San Francisco last night. The location for the festival was set at the historic Castro Theater. The panel was full of people that I admire (yes, the fabulous Carol Queen was one of the judges). GVTV caught me on the way in, and I was feeling psyched for a great night of noob erotic filmmakers!

To my surprise, most of the films they showed last night were terrible. I was very disappointed at the selection. I suppose that means that they were drowning in horrible entries. If I was in charge, I’d pull a Flava Flav and not choose a winner just yet. …I’d push the entry deadline farther out and see if there are other gems they could stumble upon.

The highest quality film they showcased actually had a real pornstar (Satine Phoenix) as a main character. I was surprised that they allowed such an element in an amateur film festival. Don’t get me wrong, I am a fan of Satine Phoenix’s work. …but my understanding was that it was supposed to be all amateur. Oh well. As it was turned out, I was happy to see at least one great erotic film. That film was more than worth the price of admission!

You may ask then, which was the worst? Believe me, this is a hard decision to make. One of the films grappled with the trite/tired/lame concept of fingering a flower. One of the judges called it “tasty.” no. I hate that women can’t be shot just fucking and having real orgasms. You can shoot real women truly getting off in a femme and artistic way, IF that’s the goal. It does anger me to see girls rolling around on beds and posing with flowers, though. …licking/fingering a rose while making silly myspace poses on the bed. What’s worse? It was shot with heavy filtering, so all the visuals were soft. I’m sure she was going for an obvious “feminine,” but her film sped quickly past feminine and drove right off the bridge of appropriate.

Being the immature film critic that I am, I started quietly giggling. I spilled out a snort, which turned into rolling laughter. The entire balcony of the theater followed suit. It was as if they were waiting for the green light to disapprove of the bad flower sex. Quickly the theater was filled with hard belly laughs. I feel bad for the filmmaker who had to hear people laugh during their “serious erotic project,” but whatever. At least it was an honest response.

I hope that next year Good Vibes gets more cut throat with the festival. I am a huge fan/customer of the GV empire, and would love to see more quality erotica making it through. …true erotic visionaries being showcased. Since it was their first year, it can only get better. I would highly suggest attending next year, so we can see this festival unfold.

Sandee is a natural born leader. I would follow this ass anywhere she decided to lead me (especially the bedroom). Wouldn’t you? Just so you know, if you say that you would not follow her ass anywhere, you are a homosexual.

That’s what I thought. When it’s time to vote, I’ll be tempted to write in Sandee Westgate’s name for president. She couldn’t be worse than Bush, right?

If you love Sandee, check out these free videos of her. Happy Wednesday! xoxo

Mary Carey is smart, albeit slightly crazy. A few years ago I ran into her at the kick off party for her PPV series Can You Be A Pornstar in Vegas.

I wanted to compliment her on a great party, awesome show concept, and possibly strike a licensing agreement. Mary had other plans for our talk. About 3 words into our conversation she started talking about how she doesn’t diet and neither should I. …how fans prefer meat on their pornstars. Apparently, she misunderstood who I was and thought that I was a plumper porn starlet in the making. uh, no…but thanks?

After she had rambled on for 20 minutes, I felt uncomfortable about correcting her. I just stood there smiling as she preached her ideals for the industry. You could tell that she was planning to run for Governor of California again.

Marey loves soapbox. And bless her for being so passionate about equality in porn land. At the end of her speech, she gave me a hug and wished me luck with my career. I graciously thanked her and walked away needing a cocktail.

You should really check out Can You Be A Pornstar. Climb into the mind of Mary Carey. She’s smart and I think love her.

Crissy Moran is one hot pornstar. If this is not a publicity stunt, I may cry. Crissy posted on her myspace blog that she’s getting out of the porn business.

What breaks my heart even more is that everyone who posted comments on her blog are jesus freaks. …complimenting her on this beautiful escape from the devil. Why can’t Crissy do porn and go to church?

I’m just going to post the letter she wrote here, and let you take from it what you will. Meanwhile, I’m going to go grab the box of tissues….

I want to thank all of you for your support throughout the years. My website forum is very active with over 1,000 members as is my website. I must be honest though I have made a living off of all of you for long enough. I want to set you free! Let me explain a bit. Many of you may have seen my last few diary entries on my website and if you have not I addressed some of my concerns with the adult industry. I felt have been feeling very sad for girls who are in porn who are strung out on drugs, their souls are lost, and they are doing unimaginable things with whoever and waking up one day and wondering where their lives went or even worse ending up dead. I have been reading gossip forums for a couple of years and I also know some of these girls that porn is destroying. I have been in porn for 6 years and I have witnessed first hand a gorgeous womans looks fade along with her soul. It really breaks my heart.

A lot of you don’t know what goes on behind the scenes. You guys know I didn’t do a lot of what I am speaking of because I stuck to the softer side of porn (seems weird to say that). The thing is even girls who do the softer side of porn sometimes lose themselves. Some become strippers and a lot of girls who do the softer stuff escort. Many of the girls have been victims of abuse sometime in their lifetime and are just looking for love and acceptance (like me).

My eyes were recently opened to the total destruction porn does. Not only does it hurt the girls in the business but it hurts you the consumer. Porn does not discriminate. Sex/porn addiction is preventing many people from finding true happiness in their lives. I know because I have spoken to so many of you through the years by email and message exchanges. Many of you spoke to me about your wives, your lonlieness, your dreams, and many of you looked to me for all the answers. I always tried to be careful when answering because I always realized that you are a person just like me who wants love and acceptance. I have gone through times when the guilt was so bad I just didn’t answer at all hence my many hiatuses.

This will be the last time I leave all of you hanging.

Many of you know that my boyfriend and I broke up a couple of months ago but don’t know why. I will explain some of that at a later time. Let’s just say the effects of the adult business took a hit on my personal life.

I have decided that I want to be free from all of the guilt now. I am making great money doing what I do but the money is not making me happy. I have moved into my own place now for the first time all alone and have decided I want out of the business. I have so much more to offer to the world than my looks and body. These things will fade. I want to experience true real life happiness. I know a lot of you will think I have lost my mind but I think that will only be the ones of you who never really knew me. I have decided to go back to my one true love who is Jesus. You may or may not believe in him and well I am not here to judge you. I am just here to share with you my story if you are willing to listen.

My website is still up for now and I have yet to discuss these things with my webmasters. I am not sure what will happen in that respect. I am looking for legal counseling and any help I can get. It will be gone soon enough though. I will be posting here on my myspace page everything going on in my life until then.

I ask you to forgive me for entering into your lives and stripping you from the more important things in life like finding true love, happiness, and your families.

Crissy

If you want to remember the good ol days, check out these Crissy Moran galleries.

I need to dedicate this post to all the foxy sexperts who have made an impact on my life. I didn’t end up on this road to positive pornography all on my own. I read their sex books early on in life, and I owe them some serious gratitude.

They helped with coming out, fucking, respecting my pussy, and navigating through various sexual politics. Without further ado, here’s a short list of queer sexperts that kick ass.

1. Annie Sprinkle
• Check out her Official Site, Wikipedia Career Summary
• Pic from my favorite sex performance piece “A Public Cervix Announcement.” Miss Sprinkle let people walk up and take a close look at her vagina through a speculum; in an attempt to “demystify the female body.” Yes. Gaping is informative!
  
2. Susie Bright
• Check out Susie’s Blog, Wikipedia Career Summary, and her newest book.
• Here’s one of my favorite photos of Susie Bright with dildos…



3. Carol Queen
• Check out her Carol’s Official Site, Wikipedia Career Summary, and a great article about this cultural sexologist.
• This is one of my favorite photos of Carol Queen. The glasses are off and she’s candid.

Buy their sex education books and/or videos for your girlfriend if you want to take your sexual life to the next level. You can learn a lot from bisexual sexperts. I promise. xoxo

The 30th annual Mrs. America pageant was broadcast on the WE channel this weekend. I’m not sure exactly why, though. I highly doubt that women are their core demographic. Ah, well. You’re lucky the lesbian caught it.

A chick named Diane Tucker from Arizona won the crown. My favorite part of the competition was probably the swimsuit walk and their interviews. It’s clear why a MILF lover like myself would appreciate the swimsuit portion of the competition. However, the interviews are choice for humor. I hate to be the one to say it, but some of these girls aren’t so bright.

Answers such as “I really believe in like literacy” make me laugh (and love them even more). As CrackaAss says, “dumb is beautiful.” So true.

That song comes into my head every time I chat with Tim (right) & Roma (left). Love me through it, okay?

This clever gay duo will keep you laughing between lube runs. Their commentary is fresh and they have all the hottest gay pornstars over to play. Episodes from the Tim & Roma talk show can be found on Tim & Roma’s blog and NakedSword. Be sure to swallow first, though. I don’t want you to spit out your ____.